forever love

changed!

2009-06-03T00:27:00.000+08:00

http://ssmin.livejournal.com/

its new! that's mine! moved!

2009-05-04T18:30:00.002+08:00

i really studied. not lying.

oh wells. my friend suggested me to do up this. so here it goes.

10 sotong acts:

wake up in the morning, changed and get ready to go school for class, only then realised there's no lesson for the day.
left home. reached the bus stop and realised she forgot something (eg. ez-link) so she went back for it. it will happen at least once, with no max. cos she's always breaking the record.
being sure that there's class for the day, reached school and realised that class is in another 1 or 2 hours later.
sitting in class, took out notes for class and discover that she brought the wrong set. (wrong subject)
finally. class ended. (won't go wrong!) waited & boarded the bus stop, but it turned out to be going the opposite direction.
this time, waited at the correct bus stop, forgetting her ez-link ran out of credit.
reminding herself to buy lunch home infinity times, she reached home empty handed.
on her way to get her lunch, she fell into the drain / kick her toes again something / wore a pair of mismatched slippers / hit into the glass door.
at home, she searched everywhere for her keys and ez-link and wallet, and only to find it in the pants she wore just moment ago after like, 1hr?
she shops for her favourite shirt in m'sia, went home happily and only realised she didnt bring it back 2 days after that.

lying on bed wondering why these acts sound so familiar, sotong know now that this was the way she has been living for the past 21 years.

2009-04-23T23:52:00.003+08:00

there's an expiry date to each promises. once overdue, u've got to "purchase" a new one.

thinking through lots of stuff, disrupting my supposedly study break. just can't get it out of me.

argh. i should just avoid looking at stuff that makes myself sad. l0lx. shall go dating soon.

Dear part timers,

You are needed to work extra recently. Especially you buddy! Your 3rd job at one time. Hee...until i employ a full time. (No such intention though.) I believe i can do pretty well with your existence.

Yours Sinerely,

Your Part Time! =D

2009-03-23T00:25:00.002+08:00

when the going gets tough, the tough gets going.
brace the obstacles, overcome the barriers.
be the only one, not the best one.
i can do it, so can u. =)

2009-03-20T23:06:00.002+08:00

day 6.
am quite certain with my decision. i know he can do it well, alone. at most, some encouragement. its kind of not easy...after so long. spent some time planning my wkend. jux this once, cos the next 3 wkends i will be at SP pool. after dat is intensive studying...as usual, i hope it will happen.

drunk on choya. haha...damn nice eh. but abit bit of it make me all red and hot. sheesh. buts its good. like the taste. got to buy some when i come back from bangkok.

2009-03-19T22:47:00.001+08:00

leave me nothing else but your smile.
i take nothing else except memories.

2009-03-19T00:27:00.002+08:00

day 4.
trying to study still. but so many things got me distracted. went to cut my hair, ending up making myself even more pek chek cos i DIN WANT A SHORT FRINGE! damn.

perfect cut 2 makes me stay at home, dun wanna go out jux to not miss any episode. but will have it recorded if go training.

cant wait for spcpoc. my second time in men's cat. excited! hee...i hope they dun break my nails or my fingers or my arms. sheesh.

2009-03-11T00:15:00.002+08:00

just came back from gym training. so proud of myself (i've got to say it again!) to run and complete 1 round around the reservoir. then after gym, another 6 rounds on the track. seriously dieting. l0lx.

some times i wonder how things spread. hmmm. should reflect on who i tok to then. anyway, it doesnt matter to me who knows wad cos i really dun care. those dat i dun bother are usually said, those unknown to u, might jux be the truth. haha.

2009-03-09T23:08:00.002+08:00

mama say we're going bangkok, u wanna come? i say, i wanna find a job but think its fine to go as a family gathering. whee...i love family gatherings. u wan go with me? >.<
shopping!! got to start saving up now cos mama say "shopping expenses not included"... i hope i dun come back overloading my cupboard. haha.

prelim's over. over and done with. most likely, will pass 1 or 2 out of 4 papers, higher chances of failing. blehx. quoted from someone, just go there and feel stupid den u will go home study. how true is it. l0lx. but i've yet to start. tml...i think.

my days are good...will work out alittle on weekdays and spend some time ( a few hrs on saturday ) with him. yup, only a few hours, cos dats all he can spare. i should stop the "watch him game then fall asleep n wake up realising its at night" activity. l0l.

oh wells. more things to be done. i need to do something abt my hair, long and untidy. bth. need to study. diet and fit for competition. plan my business. meet my friends...blah blah blah.

2009-03-05T00:37:00.003+08:00

trying to study PBF, but the long long growth of banking is boring me out.
my eye is infected again. nth new. but getting irritated. sheesh. which part of me is allergy-proof? none!

somebody's so super busy ah. find my own entertainment. went gym ytd with buddy, sy and swee (our new found sista). weets, im weak!! had thosai and indian rojak. gain back all the calories. haha.

the Ting in my life. miss u babe. *muacks*

2009-03-02T23:48:00.002+08:00

super boring. today's POA was like shit! hmmm...so tough. i actually laughed when i see the questions. i was like, wth?!! hahaha...seriously, not funny.

tml's maths and i've yet to touch anything on maths. haiyoyo. think tml jux go there, try my luck a little, see if im lucky enough to find something dat i jux study minutes before the paper. l0l.

am sick. seriously sick. think should see a doc tml on wed. tml will be rather busy. maybe wed. take medicine, rest, sleep, dream and eat like a sick-person. haven been taking care of my diet. sore throat but had fried & heaty stuff. naughty minie.

maybe i should start with sufficient rest. exactly! rest! nitex.

2009-02-24T23:23:00.002+08:00

my friend told me this story.
she says, there was once, a couple were happily together. years after the relationship started, the guy begin to feel irritated by the gf's nagging. he complained why is his gf and his ex-gfs and his mum can't stop nagging. until one day, the girl decides to stop nagging and stop to bother, the bf felt that everything went wrong. he forgot his bills, he forgot his schedule, even the date with the gf. on the day the girl packed her stuff to leave, she left a note, reminding him everything again, and she ended with, "do u know why the women of ur life can't stop nagging at u? its because u can't stop doing things that make them stop."

cool eh? haha. if ur mum complains and nags at u, why not think if its really u who deserve these. if someone stop being bothered with how u treat them, maybe u should be mindful...cos maybe one day, he/she will really "cant get bothered".

2009-02-23T23:05:00.003+08:00

mahjong-ed the whole wkend, the earliest was till....3plus am? hahaha...its too crazy. thou its not really an addiction. its jux plain boredom and bored.

not feeling well...alittle dizzy and flu and breathing difficulty and nose block and sleepy. well, i guess i'm sick. maybe i should get more rest. l0lx. but i've got paper this sat!! omg. when did time pass so fast...i din even realise. gosh. if i had spend the timing mahjong-ing on studies, i will not be panicking now. l0lx. but no regrets. =x (mama will kill me if she sees this!)

anyway, thanks to my team mates, the first wk of competition will be left with less than 8 players! hur!! still dare to say!! hahaha...u all better TRY to make it...else!!! heh heh heh.

shall get back to my books. or maybe to my bed. hmmm...

2009-02-18T23:19:00.002+08:00

waited for something that didn't come. =)
ask me if i'm used to it! yes i am.
ask me if i'm going to do anything abt it! i hope i will.

2009-02-18T02:17:00.002+08:00

bring me there...please.

argh! wads wrong with me?!! grrggghhh!!

2009-02-16T14:23:00.002+08:00

played mahjong till this morning at my place. supposed to be studying now, but...hmmm...anyway, i will study, later.

anyway, damn upset abt some things ytd. not as if i or we are the only ones not going or were late. moreover, i din intend to stay out so late ytd also lohx. cos want to study. wtf. say i irresponsible and all. i din even receive a single call can. den all i receive is sms to score me. kns. moreover, we did appear wad. not as if we ask u all wait den no come. sheesh. not trying to say dat i've got no fault. but at least i dun think i deserved to be called irresponsible!

2009-02-12T23:02:00.002+08:00

hoho. minie drove her papa's car today. whee...other than parking which took me like 5mins, its pretty fine. i guess. haha.

its a dull day, with all the imaginations running wild. lucky i've someone whom is nice enough to tok to me. *wink* oh!! not to forget my buddy and sy!! they really accompanied me through out the day while i'm suppose to study.
all thanks to my parents. humph. i woke up late and din have my breakfast, so i was waiting to have lunch with my papa and mama. den when my mama say get changed, i went to change immediately and waited for my dad to get ready. den i realised my dad din really want me to be a LIGHTBULB!! so i changed back into my pyjamas and had instant noodles can!!! humph.

i knew there was something he's up to. they actually went lunch dinning at the singapore flyers as valentine's day celebration!!! even they get their romantic moments. WITHOUT me!! makes me damn rejected and unwanted. sob... but on the other hand, quite sweet eh. hee...

went tuition den came home for dinner.

2009-02-09T23:41:00.002+08:00

hoho. lalala. got my license today. wad a nice date...09-02-2009. l0lx. only realised after i've gotten my temp license. anyway, i was lucky today. even when taking a cab, haha, poor guy in front of me couldnt get it cos the taxi went pass him and pick me up. whee...

it wasnt like the overwhelming kind of happiness but i really wanted to share with someone who's busy with his work. haha. i really dont know...it just felt disappointing.

watching american's next top model series 11. l0lx. din watch the previous ones but this one sure is interesting. l0lx. watched it!!

and "sassy girl, chun-hyang"! damn nice...i really like that poor uncle. l0lx

2009-01-28T22:08:00.007+08:00

Happy moo moo year!!

hee. everything went well, had fun, won and then lost some money playing poker. l0lx. but no problem! xiao cai bu chu, da cai bu ru (small money dun go, big money won't come!) wahahaha.

the best food had so far is fresh lobster sashimi at home. my dad bought live lobster home and made lobster sashimi!! damn good. better than any salmon or fish or squid sashimi u can get from the restaurant.

mama trying to post for photo! reunion dinner!

all the nice goodies.

lots of food!

dats me. =D

me and bro and bro...hahaha...

wenjie and me.

niece karin~ sweet girl just turn 3.

boon and me. hahaha. act guai only. everything's beneath that oriental suit of his!

baby issac. hahaha...*zhuzhu* so cute!!

baby dylan! hahaha...look at his meatball. bigger than mine!

ssmin smile!

lobster sashimi! yum yum...

my ah ma say gong xi fa cai...

sashimi in the making. one that its better not to be seen...=p

gambling den, hahaha...playing pair. my ah ma li hai de can...

the woman behind the scene. awuh. xin ku ni le, niang. hee...tml got a long day to go. will help u. hehx.

2009-01-22T00:32:00.003+08:00

i watched the obama's first speech as the 44th president of US.

it was a superb and the most motivational speech i've ever heard. managed to catch some phrases and sentences which really touched my heart. this is no pageant, but seriously...we shall uphold peace and dignity. =D

http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/americas/obama_inauguration/7840646.stm (watch it urself. only 19.45min to experience one great speech!)

"the charter of rule of law and the rights of man" - on their defence and previous forceful act other countries. =D

"judged on what you can build / built (didn't catch the exact words), and not what you destroy" - on terrorism.

"challenges may be new, instrument needed to meet them may be new, but honesty and hardwork, courage and fairplay, tolerance and curiousity, loyalty and patriotism are old, and true." - on building of faith and on future generation of the US.

the above might not be of the exact phrases, but probably from this very moment, the idea will impact my life. hahaha...haven felt so..............affected....by someone not close at all. hmm...
but its damn cool!!! =D

2009-01-12T23:17:00.002+08:00

its 12th! =) but its a monday, cum school day...so, din really expect anything other than an incoming call. but it failed to come...haha.

people worry abt their work, their career, their studies, money, people they like and people who likes them. well, im one of those with many of the above. l0lx.

troubled. but still in holiday mood. had been doing my assignment and studying for wed POA test. yawns. damn sian. ending soon. another.......4more months. =D or rather, 2&half years. whoo...ending soon~

i wish...to have a peaceful year ahead....

2009-01-08T22:00:00.003+08:00

din slp well last night. my grandma was suppose to have her operation this morning but she was pushed into the theatre and out. den put into ICU. the doc say they couldn't operate her now, not sure if they ever will. which almost mean, we can count her days.

depress? or relief?

i've got no idea. on one hand, she's safe for now that she didn't go thru this risky operation. on the other, her days are numbered.

its making me rather emo, and draining my parents' energy.

2009-01-05T22:32:00.002+08:00

sometimes, its jux pretty lonely at heart.
after so long, after so many things, nothing seems to change.
its jux moving in the same circle...good - okie - bad - worst - (upset) and back to good again. it jux move on and on until it gets really really tiring...
everything goes according to the mood.

i've tot of giving up, many last chances, but never really brave enough to let go.

someday, i might... thou at this very moment, i hope the day wun come. =)

little nyonya was good. other than some parts was really stupid. how did she get out of the fire? i guess there's no need for it to be so clear after all to make things look good. haha.

3-on-3 was tiring. the reward was a burnt skin and a swelling finger. red is enough, i hope it doesnt turn black tml. haha.

whole family's pretty worried abt ah ma. the supposed operation din get thru again cos the doc says there's water in the organs. postponed to thurs. worst still. my aunt is scaring herself cos my grandma is eating really well today. too sudden for a change of appetite. a month of two ago, doc says maximum, 1 year. does it mean difficulty getting pass 2009? i'll get a chill down my spine, to my legs and back up everytime i think of it. dunno y. i jux dun wan it to happen anymore!

sooooo 'lucky'

2008-12-30T22:39:00.002+08:00

doc: hi shimin, wad happen to you AGAIN? (wad do u mean by again?!!!! hur hur??)
me: haix. dat time u mention these (showing him the rashes) were bites by dust mites, but i've cleaned my room its still coming...
doc: do you have old mattresses or carpets at home? (oh man! how do u know i've old mattresses?)
me: not really, i often clean them...not very old thou...(liar shimin! the mattress had been around since the time u stay at tampines...which is like 10yrs back. =p)
doc: den it might be the spring cleaning at home or the renovation work around. (sheesh! he even knows dat we're doing spring cleaning. renovation work quite obvious and its really dusty.)
me: mux be...i'm very clean and strict in keeping my room and house clean.
doc: HAHA.

he's so good at it. he knows almost everything.

anyway, sorry dear. i threw away the mattress u always sleep on. will get u a new one.

off track! the main point is he said AGAIN! truthfully, for less than a mth, i've visited him 3 times. shown in the record. one time was his wife, and the other 2 was him. and each time the pills are getting smaller...good? no good! its getting bitter. WTF. 2 small pills can cause me so much misery. bitter bitTER BITTER!! GOSH.

drowsiness for day, non-drowsiness for night. =D super drowsy in the day. stupid me!

hope it wun affect my competition this wkend. =) i'll be fine...lalala...

updates! finally...

2008-12-29T00:34:00.010+08:00

Yes shinyi...i'm updating now.

1. gongxi tianlong. he passed all his papers. l0lx. it look pretty well done to me. =D congrats.

mahjong-ing session unlimited. =D - to meizhen's place.

2. Happy Birthday Darling Ting. We've celebrated...and hope u love the dinner and the cake. thou i know u love me more than anything else. >.- muacks.

yum yum...nice cake...i like!

3. Christmas was fun. Movie with benny and accompany, watched Ip Man, its pronounced as eep mun, then together, met leo and eeswee for dinner at PS, den shopping at Daiso, followed by overnight mahjong at my place.

i received a necklace from dear. bought dear a PUMA bag. & *ahem* its REAL!!

Merry Xmas dear. Merry Xmas all! =)

4. Visited my Grandma on Christmas day at the hospital...hmmm...old people, many many illnesses. her heart problem cannot be operated, doc say at most 1 year without operation. ironically its the same doc dat says " if she dun operate, at most 1 year." the next moment, after my ah ma say okie to opertation he say, " she cannot be operated as she's very weak." should have made it clear in the first place.

Latest! he's having a drying up kidney. needs to be operated. hmmm...i tot she cannot be operated? i dunno...

how should i put it...? my ah ma seriously announced she's tired of living anymore and questioned why is it that she's still alive. i really think its one's destiny to live or to leave.

lastly, cherish! wadever it is...cherish the people ard u, memories of people who left, and everything anything else.

5. Had gift exchange at home...hohoho...i've got a pretty dress...

6. i bought myself 3 pairs of shoes!!! went mango sale when it was 50%off, now its 70% off!!! arrrggghh!! FOX sale was crap. not nice. din get anything. wasted my time there.

more shopping for CNY!!

2008-12-18T00:05:00.002+08:00

down with flu, followed by a cold, then cough which led to mild asthma. long time since such things happen. banned from sports, "advised" to quit polo, told to take medicine, and felt so super bored at home.

a few weeks back, i went to Malaysia-Desaru for a holiday with my family and my parents' friends. not bad...had lots of food, especially seafood. and fruits!

somebody so busy. know i sick le also nv come visit me. so sad. hmmm...not the first time somemore...humph.

my video is loading so slowly. arrrggghhh...

i hope he will come visit me tml...=D...just hoping.

2008-11-04T16:13:00.002+08:00

tell me...who can i tok to?
tell me...who will know wad to do?
tell me...why am i feeling this way? i felt like leaving...everytime such things happen. go into hiding so that i wun think abt it.

2008-10-21T02:29:00.002+08:00

i'm a hardworking girl. hmmm...still doing my poster for SIM recruitment. was thinking to do one that can be used for any further recruitment. so ppl will recognise it?

not doing alone thou. dear is doing one for me too. at least! i learnt how to use fireworks and came out with 2 fantastic designs alright!!! jux maybe not very suitable for university recruitment standard...too fanciful, too colourful etc...never wanted to learn how to use such
C-O-M-P-L-I-C-A-T-E-D software.

been rubbing my eyes. so itchy now. hmmm...

2008-09-29T01:00:00.009+08:00

camwhoring Friday - at Daphne's wedding dinner. sweet wedding. wish them a blissful marriage. meanwhile, all our photos. =p

me and kaimin laopo. happily married for many many years too. =)

at Mariott.

with my darling...super shuai on dat day. >.<

actually. always so shuai~

great smile. nice shot of tianlong by shimin. =D
wah!!!! so cooooooooooooooool~
"i'm so hungry that i almost ate my thumb" - we waited very long for the dinner which only started at 9pm.
me~! i nan de put make up and wear dress~~~~let me take a few more...

woke up at 4am to prepare for daphne jie's wedding. wore my white dress in the morning. but did not have the full body length photo. anyway, i'm the darkest among all. so nth much to see. =p

2008-09-24T23:08:00.003+08:00

spent time watching the news today.

damn china people. caused so many babies to fall sick and some died!! so what if they got the 2008 olympics, they don't even cherish the opportunity to bring up their economy. they don't deserve it either!! companies there are so corrupted, cannot imagine how long have babies around the world been fed with the poison! kaoxxxzzz~!

totally barbarians!

remembered the last time i went to this open concert with honey & winsor at padang. we've got the pass to enter. but before we can find a good position to watch the show, all the china people climbed over the road blocks into the field and occupied the whole space. never see so many china people gathered before. but its like WTH! would singaporean act like this? maybe a few thick-skinned people will do it, but generally, we won't!!! else we wun queue for everything else.

never enough to express my anger and dislike for china people. the mastermind or the management of these companies should be punished! feed them the milk powder till they fall sick! or send them onto the road and let people spit at them!
they probably deserve a punishment for homicide or something. don't tell me they don't know that these "ingredients" are harmful to bodies. don't they have a research or quality control team in such a "not small company"? if u know and added it, shouldn't it be deliberate intoxication?
gosh. isn't natural disaster and economic problems enough for us to worry, why are these people (not sure if they can be considered as human) adding troubles to it?

2008-09-23T01:16:00.002+08:00

some times, some people talk about some things...
be it comments, be it rumours, or it could even be the truth.
i won't care, won't bother, won't want to know.

those who know shall know, those who don't know why bother to know?
if u know me, there's no need to explain anything.
if u don't know me, why even bother to explain?

huh! i'm a crazeee girl now!!!! how can he be so charming...? how? so long since i last got so crazy over him.

2008-09-21T13:27:00.007+08:00

The Suspenders Party!!!!

guai kia and chao ah beng!

prefect of the night...
pooof....
huh?

happy birthday, mommy!

preparation for the party...

girls night out...toilet lovers...

2008-09-21T13:19:00.003+08:00

friday night. went to send honey off and catch the last few hours with her. i'm gonna miss her so much...

2008-09-21T12:58:00.006+08:00

Team Munchies...so loving...=)

Team SIM Ladies - 1st runner-up

Red tide with munchies...whoo~~

seriously...
joking.
Shinyi + Shimin
me and buddy!

dear dear and me~ =D

disciples of shifu....=D
he's sure proud to have us...
its for real!! a silver medal...!
finally munchies made it through to the finals and got ourselves a silver. far from our expectation. really.

we'll be back for more...

2008-09-15T22:27:00.003+08:00

3 weekends of National Champs just ended like dat. Both of my teams, SIM & Munchies came in second. so proud to be there. =) took many photos. shall upload when i receive them.

events coming up.

should start studying. spent too much effort on sports since the week when i got no lesson. will study and do assignments. ;p
sending honey off on friday night....sob sob sob (x infinity). not as if she's not coming back, but i'll still miss u, honey. please do come back for holiday alright?
alison mummy's birthday on saturday night. hehx.
daphne jie's wedding. got to get dresses and accessories and gift for her. headache. wad to get?
start training for the next competition. i will be back, stronger!

mugging my maths now. come on Shimin. Differentiate the equation and integrate another one! double triple the headache!!! but i've done it before, just need to get myself back on track...all the way!

2008-09-03T22:33:00.002+08:00

some photos uploaded on my facebook. competition mood... drenched by the constant rain over the days. with "free-flow" running through my nose, i'm waiting for the coming matches next week.

done by shan shan. so nice rite? TP Munchies. wonder how long more can we play as a team.
Munchies after action. Our first Munchies shirt!!
oops. i'm caught on her lap! dun take me~!
i wish the games will be good for this competition. probably the last time for pioneers of TP Munchies playing together...i hope to keep this memory with a souvenir. =)

2008-09-01T01:18:00.006+08:00

went for sushi buffet on saturday. think its a celebration fro Yaohui's (on the right) birthday.

yaohui doing something obscene to alan's "chest"~!

me and dear.

table full of crab shells.

super yummy desserts. esp. the fondue.

the culprit of my stomach upset for sat night and today!

had competition for the past 2 days. had fun. and bad times. update more next time.

for now...dun wanna tok abt it.

2008-08-26T23:04:00.002+08:00

haha. went driving, den did POA. i'm so careless, even jux to copy the numbers also can copy wrongly. sian. haha...

didn't go training today. haha. so boring. tml got school, maybe slightly better...=D

was thinking if i will continue this sport. life will be so aimless without it.

many time i tot of giving up, but i could never really let it go.

let me think about it...

2008-08-26T00:27:00.003+08:00

haha. was msn-ing someone whom i didn't talk to....since....i left gelare? which is like when i was 16 going 17? haha...a 3years wasn't that long after all. suddenly remembered ppl whom i've yet to think of since i left parkway.

had sweet memories like, having ppl who cared and took care of me, receiving cakes and drinks from starbucks, and chocolates and dedication over the radio!! those were the times. =)

remembered how i used to walk from parkway, passing by roxy square to katong to take 12 home. haha...usually with companies, or escorts cos that place is really not very safe to walk at near midnight.

2008-08-26T00:14:00.001+08:00

while studying today, i fell in love unknowingly....

with this song...

Emotion - Destiny's Child

It's over and done
but the heartache lives on inside
And who's the one you're clinging to
instead of me tonight?

And where are you now, now that I need you?
Tears on my pillow wherever you go
I'll cry me a river that leads to your ocean
You never see me fall apart

In the words of a broken heart
it's just emotion taking me over
Caught up in sorrow
lost in the song
but if you don't come back
Come home to me, darling
don't you know there's nobody left in this world tohold me tight
nobody left in this world to kiss goodnight
Goodnight, goodnight

I'm there at your side,
I'm part of all the things you are
But you've got a part of someone else
You've got to find your shining star

And where are you now, now that I need you?
Tears on my pillow wherever you go
I'll cry me a river that leads to your ocean
You never see me fall apart

In the words of a broken heart
it's just emotion taking me over
Caught up in sorrow
lost in the song
but if you don't come back
Come home to me, darling
don't you know there's nobody left in this world tohold me tight
nobody left in this world to kiss goodnight
Goodnight, goodnight

And where are you now, now that I need you?
Tears on my pillow wherever you go
I'll cry me a river that leads to your ocean
You never see me fall apart

In the words of a broken heart
it's just emotion taking me over
Caught up in sorrow
lost in the song
but if you don't come back
Come home to me, darling
don't you know there's nobody left in this world tohold me tight
nobody left in this world to kiss goodnight
Goodnight, goodnight

2008-08-24T00:05:00.005+08:00

came home from dear's place. he made my laptop so cool! muacks!

went for ma la huo guo last night with dear, chung, eu, shan, xwen, eeswee, organised by jas. haha...really is ma la! dear and i had our mouth numb before some of them reach. =D we ordered so many food. but ate them clean.

went training today. hahaha...mostly alumni girls. today all so high take photos lohx. l0lx. went to get our new munchies shirt from addidas. =D nice...and my grey fbt. hahaha...

By Number!

By Height. Dear Shan, I'm taller than you...!! =D

tml going friendly with dear at ntu. dunno if i'll get to play. haha...

2008-08-19T00:16:00.002+08:00

tried doing maths today. met alot of problems. gonna ask my brother tml then. =D studied alittle, went the foodcourt at giant for lunch with mum and then came home to prepare for tuition. came home after that and waited for dinner.

my student had bruises all over his body. he didnt want to tell me at first but eventually did. scare me. i tot his father so violent, but good to know its not. he have a 2 days old brother. its so small and cute. hee...can hardly see him open his eyes. so cuteeeeeeeeeeee.

2008-08-17T22:13:00.003+08:00

had my econs bridging on fri. haix. mentally tired. din do well i guess...

friendlies for the wkends. SP on saturday and Red Tide on sunday. tiring. haven got the time to study or sleep. yawns. felt like having mcHotcakes. hmmm...

watching the olympics on tv make me excited abt the coming nat champs. will train hard. started running today...UNDER THE HOT SUN!! bad choice~ =(
before friendly already half burnt. now i'm "well-done".

Whoo~ SILVER MEDAL IN OLYMPICS?!!! thats SINGAPORE. so proud of them. thou i still dun really like Chi-na ppl. =)

2008-08-14T20:29:00.002+08:00

studying!! haven study so hard since........my last exam in poly?

yum yum. going to have ice cream cookies and cream cake later. =D

2008-08-12T15:45:00.001+08:00

='(

wad else can i say?

2008-08-07T00:54:00.000+08:00

haha. the last 2 days was busy!! tuesday went to NTU to meet dear and po joined us for dinner as well. den go friendly, only reach home at 12.30. sian. so tired.

had first official lesson ytd. it was okie...except to carry those thick and heavy notes. hmmm...first class in the morning i had accompany from martin, after class met laopo for lunch. had roasted chicken sandwich!! not bad eh. den after the afternoon class, came home for dinner and filed the almost 20cm thick of notes.

6 hours of lesson drained all my energy for the day.

will be having driving session today, near my place. should be safer than at Eunos i guess. whoo~~excited. =D

2008-08-04T22:22:00.000+08:00

woke up early this morning, had breakfast and went out to give tuition. came home, den went for dental appointment to clean my teeth.
WTH~!! damn pain ah. bleeded for so damn long!! till now still have the taste of blood in my mouth. haix. and still pain. can hardly bite anything hard.
after dental i went to give another tuition and came home for dinner. my mum left some food for me while my dad bought like 10 durians. haha. but before i reach home my mum went to the clinic to see a doc. l0lx. doc say she cough till stomach muscles ache! i understand how it feels. l0lx.
anyway, got my brothers to help me pack the durians into boxes and i cleared the mess and mop the floor. had some durians too. =D not bad...not fantastic cos got the taste of blood!

wad a busy day. and boring. hmmm.

he's at the west, din really get to tok to him abt anything for since ytd. well. school's busy and tiring for him i guess. =)
still positive abt things. =D

2008-08-03T22:10:00.001+08:00

its sunday. went to school for POA class today at 0830hrs. when was the last time i wake up at 6? hmmm...no idea. anyway, had lesson. easy start. den went to AMK to meet dear for lunch and buy stuff. den with his friends went to shop for laptop and printer at courts. came home and dear dear went home to prepare for his first stay-in at NTU. =)

its complex. though it may seem simple.
a smile can speak a million words.

2008-07-30T23:54:00.001+08:00

hmmm. why is everybody going away.

Boon went aussie. missed him.

Honey is going Liverpool. will miss her lots lots lots and even more.

Dear dear is going NTU. thou is in singapore, but will be east-west apart.

Shifu going aussie for 2 months too. =(

worst thing. Felt so distant from the sport i've been playing for the past 3 years.

2008-07-23T17:02:00.000+08:00

wanna spend alot alot alot alot of time with him!!~~

walked pass some carpark near my place and found these drawings. it looked like a

=) and

=( face. wonder how is it done!

canoepolo, school and fun.

spent time with him before his enrollment to NTU. went to lin you jia and liu li yang's live school concert.

2008-07-18T23:11:00.000+08:00

haven been feeling well. sore throat, running nose and all have been keeping my busy for days. haha...bring extra tissue out and lozenges are necessity now.

some mistakes can only be made once even if there might be a second chance. i dun find the excuse reasonable. cherish wad u have ba...in any case, without me reminding u, u will still come to realise it in the future.

2008-07-11T00:14:00.000+08:00

watched HellBoy 2 with dear. Nice movie. Worth the tickets.

came home and watched Perfect Out on channel U. bad decision. it was on liposuction (if i get the name correct~). i'm so disgusted by the scenes of the surgeon operating. and it make me feel F-A-T!!! maybe i'm fat...shall review my weight. =( guilty to eat pastamania and garlic bread and popcorn and drink ice-lemon tea just for dinner! super guilty...

2008-07-02T22:28:00.000+08:00

school started, busy with those admin stuff and bridging course, then was the merlion competition, now finally settled down a little for the coming nat champs with munchies. more or less only those few people coming for training. but we actually have like almost 10 people in the team. we shall see...hahaha...this coming nat champ gonna be interesting. =D

went for the orientation that was pretty stupid and boring. haha. met dear for lunch at amk hub and then went to his house to nap. wahahaha. its really tiring to wake up at 6plus in the morning. when was the last time i am required to do that...? hmmm...probably last nat champ, but its not like a everyday thing.

anyway, i'm motivated to wake up early so that i can avoid the busy hours and safely secure a seat on the train. else, if some pregnant woman or elderly comes by, i've got to give up my seat. reluctant, but i respect their need for the seat. thou sometimes, they will be like, "its okie, i dun need it..." hahaha...jux take it la...else some irritating aunty will push push jux to get the seat.

i got my iTouch!! after so long...got it for $400plus, could have gotten a paddle but i said no to paddle and hello to iTouch. i felt its more practical despite my passion for the sport. speaking of passion, i wondered how long will i stay in this sport. met a secondary friend, yinjoo (aka joo) during bridging course and she was like, u used to be so fair, fairer than me. haha. and i actually felt her quite fair now. miss those kind of fairness, but its okie. cos when i see shan so far, i think i'm better to be tanned. =p sorry shan! shall tan with me other time alright?!!

lots of stuff coming up for the weekends...but i think i will be free to blog with my new device.
(>.-)V

2008-06-22T22:28:00.000+08:00

school is starting again. tml onwards will have bridging course for 3 days a week, and then exams in august and then school starts officially.

there is also a competition by the Merlion for this coming week. but a few hours ago, i jux received calls that they intend to walk over tml's match. i was like "...??!!!!....." hmmm...definitely not my type to walkover for competition, but i guess its beyond my control. how to play a 5 men sport with players less than that. haha...

should i? should i not?
take mc or leave to play the competition? should i should i??? hmmm...first few lessons only. i want!! =p cannot let my mimmy know, else she'll kill me. =x

2008-06-08T01:11:00.001+08:00

went to watch kungfu panda last night. hahaha...super funny. those who haven watch it...u should. and uob visa at cathay got discount. its $8 for a ticket. hahaha...

then today got alumni girls outing. the initial plan for cycling at east coast was cancelled due to the rain and so we went downtown to bowl and have lunch. after that went hazel's place for mahjong. then met shan to go bugis for ma la steamboat. damn full now. every few minutes will feel as if the food is coming out still. it has been 4hours from the dinner...terrible feeling. im sure i made the money paid worthwhile....if i dun need a doctor tml.

will probably start training tml (if i'm still okie) so that i can join the school team for the PUB competition thingy.

received the UOL letter today. then i got to go for bridging course in later june, den pay fees, and start school. time really passes very fast. a moment ago i was still struggling with my corporate secretarial thingy, and after i amazingly pass the subject, the next thing i know i graduated and got into SIM. not much time to give serious consideration or proper planning. but i dun think i want to waste any more time.

promised to go club with the juniors on wed. i think i will make it this time. haha. always ps them, but i'm going to make it this time. cos haven really play since my last exam paper in poly. moreover, tuesday is pay day!! haha. but i only worked 4 days last month. =p

watched Fated to Love You EP12. omg. i cried so badly...like the tears really jux cannot stop flowing. now eyes so swollen. past week have been busy watching The Legend (
tai wang si seng ji) and i cried at some parts too. guess i'm jux bored. Fated to Love You is very good...really. Even though i only get to watch an episode weekly, but the emotions were brought over and made me continue to cry.

yawns. need to wake up for training tml. training with guys, dunno got boat to use anot. hmmm...

nitex nitex.

2008-05-29T21:47:00.000+08:00

been working for the past 2 days. so boring. hmmm...maybe working is not my type. especially at somewhere where there is no access to messenger and everything else is blocked by the system. haix. so sad.

had lunch with honey for the past 2 days too. first day went to have claypot rice and today went for pasta mania. so full.

my back is aching. hate it. abit "sour" abit pain. humph. maybe cos sit in office too long le. haha...lazy people got all type of excuse jux to be lazy. lalala...

got to work again tml. working at SGX centre is so interesting, and boring at the same time. yawns. goodnight.

2008-05-26T12:10:00.000+08:00

mass upload of photos. i can hardly get good connection so when i can i upload everything. haha.
new favourite hang out. Gelare~ the waffle is good, the ice cream is good. hahaha...

we humph!

they humph!
we have meat balls.
he have meat balls too!
kor kor & sao sao...

mei mei D a.k.a shifu!
cheezz with brother.

my mimmy...
its better than finger licking good~ wahaha...
jas ho's pyjamas party.
my graduation day. haha...finally the day have come. i wasn't too sure if Law is something i like. probably till now, still not very sure. in any case, i graduated. with much uncertainty of the future, i shall move towards the banking field.

i was filling up a survey form on that day. we are suppose to state our favourite subject and the least. i filled in criminal law, family law and law of banking & finance. hahaha...indeed these are my favourite subjects. all those procedures stuff....eeww...no no. criminal & civil procedure are the worst. almost took half of my life.

i'm looking forward to the next phase of life in SIM. having to know that its a 3 years degree, i hope it wun be like the 3 years studying law which i regretted in the first year, want to change course but too late in the second year and bo bian finish it in the third year. haha...sounds quite bad ah? but okie la...finish le ma...hahaha...

2008-05-21T23:31:00.000+08:00

did nothing today. eat, sleep, watch tv, shop for grocery and eat and now going to sleep, later going to watch Man U vs. Chealsea and then back to sleep. haha...well planned...there's even a pattern to it!
uploaded some stupid photos taken over the long weekends. tml is my graduation ceremony wor!! hee...super excited. got to get some beauty sleep. hope everything goes well tml.
stupid! cannot upload the photos. shall do it some other time. yawns.
night.

2008-05-19T14:39:00.003+08:00

thou its like abit late, but yeah!!! Man U won!! whoo~ and anyway, this wed match against chealsea will be interesting. =D My laogong so shuai!!! =D

2 days under the sun is tiring. felt burnt and dried. roasted pig. hahah.

went for sushi buffet at elias mall with the rest and then walked to downtown for gelare waffle. haha. so full. ate so much yesterday. got to exercise more le. next week end also under the sun i guess.

will be working part time tml. at suntec i think. work for one day only. hmmm...still actively looking for a job. haha. dat time i was offered a banking job but i cannot commit cos they dun want temps. hmmm...wasted.

found

2008-05-11T12:12:00.000+08:00

2008-05-09T22:35:00.000+08:00

went RELC ytd afternoon and realised i still got to go back with my O level cert and Diploma cert which i have yet to collect. walk a long long distant uphill, and downhill and uphill again. from far east to orange grove road, to shangri-la hotel and then to RELC. long way. i never stop complaining and was glad that i'm in flats. almost want to wear heels cos going orchard gai-gai and all...but!! heng ah....haha.

had a great ladies night after that. went karaoke with the girls (min, daphne, judy and weiping). din know there will be a celebration for me and judy's birthday. i ate alot alot alot alot alot x infinity of rubbish...hmmm...i'm actually doing them a deed okie?! if they eat den cannot sing, no good. hee...alot of photo taking. i'm not the very photo taking type, so i jux sit n wait for them to come take with me. >.- will upload the photos soon. alot sia...haha.

I, Sia Shimin, WILL start training tml! and job hunting on monday! basic criteria: high salary, flexible working hours (want to work then work, dun wan....den dun go lohx), easy job, caring & fun colleagues, near good and cheap food (still saving up for my itouch cos current savings i have other plans *wink wink*), and best if do not have to leave home. haix. no wonder no agent contacted me yet. =(
**the above are purely for entertainment purposes. i am quite a hardworking and easy going person. >.-**

i am jux senile now. wad to do...? too long no use brain is like dat de. =D

2008-05-08T00:57:00.000+08:00

haha. wanted to have a post on my birthday but forgot and had no time for it. was busy too.

i had a surprised party for my birthday and thank all my darlings there to make it happen. and the presents. =D

worked and quit my job. so now i'm busy at home. jux got 2 new racks for my room, arranged it and made it neater. hee...now that i'm jobless, got to think of how to live for the next 2 months before school starts.

i'm watching the japanese hana kimi. hmmm....looks quite good for the first episode. haha.

i miss pool training. but got no boats to use. so sad.

will be meeting daphne min and judy for party world later. think its in orchard. yawns.

will be going school for lunch and watch movie. haha.

2008-04-25T08:47:00.000+08:00

going to work soon. wonder wad is the outcome of ytd's directors meeting. hmmm...
boring friday. got to work. so sian. if only i can be at school QC the new batch of girls, and maybe guys. haha.
uploaded some photos. munchies outing and meet the Tpians team photos.

go work le. bye. muacks!

2008-04-23T22:29:00.000+08:00

working hours change again. from 10 to 7. damn sian. so tiring.

had lunch with honey and alvin ytd. alvin's b'day. bought him a present and honey's belated present.

work, lunch, work, home, dinner, online and sleep. daily routine. shimin became coffee addict recently. hah! arranged meeting with friends recently. tml meeting sy and the rest for dinner, 08/05 meet daphne & kaimin they all for karaoke, and more. cannot remember.

Shimin's turning 20 soon! wah. stepping into the beginning of 2 le wor. excited. but alittle reluctant. anyway, got to sleep early. yawns.

should i or should i not? hmmm....

2008-04-21T21:34:00.000+08:00

3 weeks of competition ended. Rookies lost to El Clasico, Monsters won, we played a good competition i guess. Meet the Tpians again soon! haha...
went back to work. one colleague left. think i am next. gab said it so loudly in the office that i'm leaving soon. hah! think i will be called into the office soon.
fred gave me a present for my birthday. a financial calculator? wahaha...the weirdest present i ever receive. a used one somemore. so insincere.
want to get other stuff for my birthday. but still haven see things dat i like. got a wallet and 2 pairs of heels, and 2 pairs of slippers so far...is it alot? intending to get a bag, a coin pouch, a dress...hmmm...and maybe more. die ah. this month sure overspend de. haha. shall save up on food.
poor shimin is getting fatter. cannot stand her. she keep on sit inside the office and make phone calls. shall make her do some exercises....while sitting down. wahaha...super lazy to work out can?!! hmph.
i think i'm going alittle crazzzzzy...but its okie... =D

2008-04-17T23:33:00.000+08:00

sob. my hair!! i regret...totally. felt like crying...so badly.
The worst thing that could happen to Shimin is a bad hair cut. will buy a cap tml. hmm...make it 2 cap. i really really dislike a ugly hair cut. sob. i am speechless...='(

2008-04-16T00:44:00.000+08:00

hmph. if i were her, i would save all my energy wasted on others and make something useful out of it. cannot cannot stand her!!

haix. but still got to go back work.

had diarrhoea for the whole day. but still fine. maybe eat too much junk food le.

i told him i want to try this kind of life. work, home, rest repeating each day. he said i won't like it. hmmm...in fact, this was the kind of life i had before we were together. and i was fine with it. he's right...alittle. i'm not very used to this kind of lifestyle. i realise how much time i have in a day after taking out those waiting time, travelling time and dreaming time.

i miss my honey. she called me that day and was upset that i cannot go holiday with her. sorry honey. i miss the time we had in school. generally & basically, without you in school, i will be so lonely. (i know you are touched, come give me a hug...)

2008-04-15T13:46:00.000+08:00

shimin got herself a third birthday gift. i got myslf a pair of heels yesterday, a slipper dat time with shan on the spree but have yet to get it and a wallet today. went out for a break while working. left office for arcade awhile den go shopping at bugis junction. went back like an hour later. got this wallet.

work was fine, quite okie other than some aunties keep on want to find trouble with me. hmph. dun force me go boss office complain ah! hahaha...

competition was fine as well...as least wun knock out first round. this weekend still got match den watch the girls match, hope they can qualify for finals.

super tired after work and all. cant wait to rest well.
oink oink.

2008-04-08T23:28:00.000+08:00

one month of my life seems so long and difficult. first week of the month was calm and peaceful. no confusion, not much thinking involved. the second week is the beginning of stressfulness and many many thoughts. third week is full of tears and sorrow...i dunno how to give you an answer...i really dun have an answer.
this is the fourth week. i still do not have an answer. i wish i was never at this stage. all the misery, all the memories and the "i want an answer" is killing me. haix.

work has been fine. wanting to quit then decided to stay then go Linda's company to interview then had deals in my current job then decide to stay for this month, then Linda say she prefer me than the other interviewee then i say maybe i will want to stay for another month then she say she will let me know again.

that's about all for these few weeks.

other than competition, i'm reading a book and searching for an answer. not really in the mood to blog. i wish i have an answer.

...please...show me the way...

2008-03-25T22:54:00.000+08:00

have been quite busy recently. work, train, mahjong and sleep. hahaha...full and complete description of my life since the last post.

many things happened. met new ppl, learn new stuff and grew fatter...
shan and i were comparing whose tummy is bigger...its like WTH!! only 2 wk plus of work, its all coming out. so scary. Shan! got to exercise hor. l0lx.

i came to know more about mortgage loan and how bank process the application...hmmm...so angry when they don't respond. hmph!

i see all kinds of ppl at work. irritating colleagues, sticky colleagues, pervertic customers, angry&rude clients, and also demanding supervisor keep pestering for submissions. hahaha....but quite interesting to know that such ppl actually exist!
esp this guy who hear my voice and start pestering me...super irritating...he can send me like 20 msg-es a day even if i din reply a single msg. he never see me before,and dont even know my real name cos i was using my "trade name". gosh. cannot stand him.
l0lx. eu say i sound gross that time when i pick up her call thinking that its a customer. really ma...nobody will speak the same tone when u talk to friends and customers. hmmm...and ppl say i sound sweet can!!!

i have this client, probably the first to sign my commission...say she likes me and will recommend me to others. she is so so so sooooooooooooooo nice...she even insist treating me tea when we met that time. hahaha...

competition around the corner but i'm not physically ready. shall do some running to increase running and endurance level. i will need it when playing in man's cat. =)

2008-03-08T18:40:00.000+08:00

it is 2.20 am in the morning. i wonder why am i still awake. i was so sleepy jux now. can fall asleep anywhere anytime.

went marina after work, den his phone no batt, so set me waiting there. then decided to go tamp watch movie. so we met up and went to watch water horse. hmmm...typical storyline but have some interesting scenes. they maintained the kindness of the creature throughout the whole show.

saw the laser printers on sale at suntec. hmmm...was interested but din want to look at it myself. he say maybe sunday after friendly go IT show together...den maybe i wun get cheated.

talking abt cheated!!! my jux missed a 15 properties big client...i was so upset...it could mean 10million worth of loan can?!! kaox.

something used my acc this afternoon and i knew it...
To whoever using/used my acc: please dun ever do that again...

i shall go sleep so tml can train. goodnight!

2008-03-06T17:51:00.000+08:00

first day of work cum training was fun. making phones calls, realising how many many many millionaires are there in singapore, and find that the world is full of wonderful and nice people. haha...

i was supposed to work 5.5 days week. but, as usual, i gave my lady boss a sincere and troubled look, telling her i've got other commitments on saturdays, asking if i can dun work on saturdays. den wow!! she say can!! ask me to only work for 5 days...but shhh...cannot tell anyone. but...hahaha...i din tell, i blogged it out.

anyway, since i got myself a saturday off, i shall utilise it. i need a training plan. like dat join men's category too weak le.

i am counting down to my 20th birthday. still far, but i will need preparation. cos this year i am doing it myself.

i haven been sleeping well...wake up like every hour each night. i also dunno y. sometimes jux feel like opening my eyes, some times cos like abit heartache, sometimes cos wonder why am i crying, and one time, woke up cos i need to pee...is it funny? i think it is....

tml got to make more calls...so mux have a nice voice.

resting...goodnight to me. goodnight to u too...

2008-03-05T15:50:00.000+08:00

Shimin found a job. she had never done sales or marketing before, but she is willing to try. if not now, then when? the pay was quite good i guess...i will work hard for my first $10,000. on the other hand, i will have to work till 7pm everyday. from 10am to 7pm. quite okie rite? since i will be quite free at night. the other reason why i picked up this job is cos its never too much to work. no need to scared i will finish all the work. all the effort will be shown in my performance, and rewarded in my pay. quite cool yah?

it was a peaceful day for me. all the sadness and tears were burried behind my laughter. haha. Shimin is so proud of herself. a few heart-wrenching moments, but she walked through it bravely. but nevertheless, i wish somebody were here to share my excitement about my new job.

this might be my first and last competition in the man's category. hahaha....so cool rite? play against guys. i'm really not afraid to get injured wor. cos i am not weak!! hee...moreover, i hope to bring the experience into my games in the women's category is i ever play again. it will be so interesting. hahaha...though i think it will be somehow different. hahaha...losing to loop shots and all is so irritating. haha.

2008-03-04T13:30:00.000+08:00

想问为什么
我不再是你的快乐
可是为什么
却苦笑说我都懂了
自尊常常将人拖着
把爱都走曲折
假装了解是怕
真相太赤裸裸
狼狈比失去难受

我怀念的是无话不说
我怀念的是一起作梦
我怀念的是争吵以后
还是想要爱你的冲动

我记得那年生日
也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空
最紧的右手
最暖的胸口
谁忘了

我怀念的是无言感动
我怀念的是绝对炽热
我怀念的是你很激动求我原谅
抱得我都痛

我记得你在背后
也记得我颤抖着
记得感觉汹涌
最美的烟火
最长的相拥
谁爱得太自由
谁过头太远了
谁要走我的心
谁忘了那就是承诺

谁自顾自地走
谁忘了看着我
谁让爱变沉重
谁忘了要给你温柔

我怀念的
我还有想要爱你的冲动我
记得那年生日
也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空
最紧的右手
最暖的胸口

我放手
我
让座假洒脱
谁懂我多么不舍得
太爱了
所以我
没有哭
没有说

2008-01-10T23:47:00.000+08:00

i'm sick at home. can hardly move around. high fever, bad headache and an evil virus attack. but i still got to go school tml due to the projects and all...got to at least speak to my group mates.

only live on H2o, 100plus, a little porridge and medication for the whole day. i am gonna be so slim after this.

i miss my dear dear. i miss him when i'm lying flat on the bed, i miss him when i'm taking my porridge, i miss him when i'm lying half dead on the sofa, i miss him when i can hardly swallow the pills but still have to.

2008-01-09T11:28:00.001+08:00

after 3-on-3, i realise i got so many many work to do. my assignment due on monday is in a mess. other projects not started. still haven get myself back from the working life.

my first competition after the nat champ and after my break from canoepolo. haven trained with my team mates for some time. after this competition, i am quite clear that i really like this sport. project aside of cos. academic priors.

going for project meeting soon...troubled. Intellectual Property is so irritating..........!!!!!!!!!!
*gone*

2007-11-15T04:19:00.000+08:00

I’m feeling lousy today. The thing dat happened ytd....was my mistake. a mistake that I shouldn’t have commit. Something dat shouldn’t happen.

Missing deadlines, forgetting the time for class, and sometimes, forget about many other things are part and parcel of my life. But I’m very upset with myself.

I forgot to record the hearing for today and was lucky enough to find out ytd. I din know I had a fax dat I’ve been waiting for is here already as somebody left it on my table without telling me. It’s my fault for not checking it regularly. Totally wrong. The worst thing is that I’m not scolded. Nobody scold me!! Sob. i dun like the guilty feeling. i would rather they scold me and make me remember the scolding instead of the guilt. Gosh.

I’ve been asking for work to do since the beginning and now I jux dun feel like asking for any more work. If they want, they will give it to me and I hope I dun mess things up again. I’m bitten once, now I’m scared.

2007-10-21T13:42:00.000+08:00

i went shopping with darling Ting's aunty today. bought shoes. 3 pairs!! haha...shopping really make ppl hungry. hee. den i went to ah ma house for dinner. home-cooked food is so good. u cannot imagine how much i miss home cook food for lunch each day. im so serious. my mummy really make the best meals. dun belief can ask leon and his colleague who heats up my lunch box.

i ate kfc with darling Ting ytd. chat and walk around. she wanted to buy the stand, in the shape of a shapey lady in gowns, for her mother to put accessories. but its quite ex. if its affordable, i'll buy one too...maybe 2.

its so difficult to upload the photos. so irritating... have to upload one by one. but im bored and free...might as well jux do it.

me and dear's footprint.

dear & leo's footprint
me and dear dear *catch 1*

me and dear dear *catch 2*

me & dear dear *catch 3* on the horse carriage

kor kor (leo) and da sao (zhen)

i love the horse carriage ride!!

can you see the tiny one on the left. i cant. i only have dat guy in my eyes. *awuh~*

no ah meng...only...hmm...bats?

for lizard: your distant cousin wants to say hi! hee...

sun tanning lizard...

cutie...though dirty...

greedy elephant getting food. evil zoo-keeper put it so high up...

red butt baboons sure know how to show their butts.

swimming white tiger...

real or fake? look at the legs!! its foldable.
its too fast to take a proper pic. leo capture it using video cam.

this tiger is sooooooooo camera smart...
these 2 tigers fought...dear has a photos of it in action, i dun. =(

2007-10-17T13:37:00.000+08:00

not very free recently.
went bedok then to darling Ting's house on fri nite, had dinner and watched tv then head home for a sad sad nite. sad cos i couldn't dear for the whole night since afternoon. very sad. and angry.
saturday had a mini gathering at zhen's place. went to yishun market in the morning with family. then they pei me go buy steamboat de stuff, and then send me over to zhen's place. im there the earliest...den dear and the rest came along.
had some board games, mahjong and karaoke. fun night. den went home.
sunday went zoo with zhen and leo and dear. i love the horse carriage, the sealion feeding, the nice weather, the laughter and stupid jokes we made. and of cos the animals. i din manage to alot photos with my phone. but dear and leo did. when they send me the photos den upload.

have been raining...and caught in the rain many many times...sick le...sob. oeh oeh.

2007-10-09T17:42:00.000+08:00

its 17:28 now. i'm preparing to go home when my lawyer handed me a file. haha.
this morning when i came, there were 2 files with 2 instructions. when i had my breakfast and went to the toilet on the 2nd time, i get another file. weirdly, there wun be any file when im sitting at my place. hahaha...

should i do abit now or leave all till tml. i dun like do things halfway. but i dun wan squeeze in the mrt now...ytd i left at 6 punctually and there was a heavy traffic at the control station. maybe i should blog till 18:00 and leave. hehx.

had lor mee with bi hu for lunch. i din know in this area we can find such cheap and good food. it was really good, but im too full to drink the soup. i din want to miss the noodles, so i ate it all. wahahaha...so full.

came back and start doing nothing. drink water, refill water, sweep the floor, & sending faxes itself took 15 minutes. read ppl's blog, go friendster, read channelnewsasia news all done. wad else can i do...though i dun like to stay around doing nothing...i also dun like to do work slowly...once the idea starts flowing, i must do it quick else i lose the train. hmm. dilemma.

tp-nus dinner? ria called me to ask if im free for dinner with them and nus...of cos! i'm so free during weekdays.

i stopped washing my laundry on wednesdays. hmm. i realised it saves my resting time if i wash it all at a time...it saves water too. i'll do it on sunday morning...which mean if it rains from monday to wed, i got no clothes to wear...or maybe i'll wear my mother's.
rain rain go away. come in night and go in the day.

2007-10-09T07:33:00.000+08:00

I am supposed to be working but apparently I do not have the mood. My phone dun seem to listening to me. It suddenly cannot send or receive msg, or cannot receive and make calls…so sad. Anyway, im falling asleep soon. My eyes are closing.

Found some pictures from 4shared…haha…continuation of the photos…

1 & 2

glor & ria
food!! for 6!! there were only 4 of us...but we clean it up...thoroughly.
one half each makes it 2!

2007-10-07T15:33:00.000+08:00

had a busy weekend. mummy wasnt veyr happy with my busy wkends though.
anyway, had movie with dear dear at PS, watched resident evil 3 on saturday. den had pasta mania den went to his house for soccer...ronaldo is soooooooooooo cute. hehx. he scored 2 on saturday. finally a break through of 1 goal each match for Man U. i din go for my photoshoot. i know dear dear is worried about me then dun let me go de...hehx. muacks. thanks dear.

sunday morning was spent washing my laundry and den went to dear dear house to have brunch with him. we watched the <> singing competition. den had a nap before going for Ria's birthday celebration. had a girls' night out then...was crazy and fun...all the lame jokes and nonsense. unglam once in a while should be okie i guess. hahaha...uploaded alot of photos at one go...woohoo~~!

me & shan

i see 23!
how many hands do i have? halloween preparation.
muacks! (i meant kissing the muffin)
me alone... me and birthday ger!!
buddy!!

we were at.....i like my phone...
1, 2, 3, 4
my shuai shuai de dear dear...

my cutie dear...
me and dear dear
hah! so bright...
blehx!
he's frowning...hmm...=(

he is still frowing... i am frowning too now...
some act cute moments...quite cute ma...
whose eyes bigger?

he has dimples...its so unfair...
camera-created mist...
saturday blues...

2007-10-06T12:52:00.000+08:00

hmm...its a bad bad bad friday at work today. i was so disgusted by the desperate china man. i felt like vomitting after wad happened. never will want to mention it again. if it was a few years back, such person will get a hard kick from me. but well, im working in a law firm, and in anyway, i shall not resolve using violence...
totally disgusted!!

had lunch with lizard and got leon to help me pick up soya tarts. but i din really have much appetite. had sore throat but by dinner time, i had no appetite due to wad had happened at work.

i dun feel like going to work anymore...hmm...sob sob. its really scary.

2007-10-05T01:36:00.000+08:00

I’m so bored that I’m blogging again. I woke up in the morning, feeling so reluctant to come work. Then I finished the last submission of yesterday’s file and had nothing to do for now. I don’t feel like asking for more work cos I am really tired.

My bother was stung by a lost hornet after he attempts to catch it with a plastic bag. His finger swell like a super cooked hot dog…den my parents send him to the hospital, with the bee. Its dead cos after it stings it will die…*auh~~~* or is it my bro crashed it when it sting him…hmm…anyway, the doc says it look like a hornet. Gave him an injection and kept him there for a few hours to see if there were side effects, no, and let him home. His finger is still the size of my thumb…not as if my thumb is fat…but bigger than his other fingers.

I’ve got nobody to talk to so I begin to talk to myself jux like JOAN LIM PUAY SHAN. None of my colleagues understood me. Hahaha…but its okie…u cant expect much from a sleepy and grumpy person.

2007-10-04T14:15:00.000+08:00

today was a busy day as i dun get to be in office for almost the whole day. was at court since 0930 in the morning. went for a hearing and a few CDRs and mention and adjournment...my lawyer treated me to lunch and tea (literally "tea") den we went back office. i've calculated the time i sat or stand there doing nothing, it amounts to 50% of the time i'm out of office.

anyway, even out of the office, i still gossip. first is the today high court stupid case...cannot describe how stupid such thing was...its jux stupid plus a few more stupid. den it was my lawyer's matter...abt some allegations made against him. den it was this lawyer from some law firm asked if i am interested or if i know anyone else who has same capability in being a paralegal wants to work with them. he left me his name card. so anybody who wants to be a paralegal...let me know, i shall refer you to him.

went back office, lady boss gave me her b'day cake. i greeted her with birthday wishes before i get the super nice choco cake from coffee bean. i tot they ordered vegetarian carrot cake, but i got no idea how it became a coffee bean choco cake. but its nice anyway, so doesn't matter.

super sad. actually going zouk with mich and the ladies...but i worked till abt 7plus...and my legs and back is giving me some problem, i decided not to go. even though i stopped gym, but carrying those stupid thick books is crazy enough to cause my pain and suffering. so instead, i met dear dear for dinner den go his hse watch the 9pm show and after i put him to sleep, i say goodbye to his brother in the same room which he did not reply, and left the hse quietly...his father opened the door for me though.

more work tml...im so going to buy more coffee for myself...btw, i drank 2 cups of tea and a cup of coffee today. else i would have been a goner...in my lala land.

2007-10-02T03:13:00.000+08:00

Gosh. I’m blogging again. Hahaha. I went to ask for more work jux now so dat I will look busy. Sometime I really hope I am busy. So I wun have time to think of a lot of things and make myself so confused and hopeless and tired.

The last slot wasn’t as fantastic as I hope it would be. Was a little disappointed but I guess if it doesn’t happen now, it will happen sooner or later…so no difference.

Ytd went to have seoul garden with leo & zhen, jas & swee, lindy, jonathan and dear. It was a good dinner…had my fill cos I din eat anything for the whole day till then. Good thing I do not have to wait for my food. On sat, at amk hub, me and dear dear went for dinner….i ordered, paid and stood there waiting for 10 long minutes la! But they forgot to make my food. I was so angry and hungry and irritated. Shit them la. Had shabu-shabu with dear dear…though it made me wait, it’s still not that bad…quite nice…if its bad…I would go back and complain!!

Supposed to be working, but I am friendstering and asking ppl to add me on msn…more chances to have ppl toking to me during work. Haha…

anyway, I was hoping that the next pay will come soon…can’t wait for it to come. It will be at the end of the month, but its 1st October today…haha.

Happy Children’s Day. Any presents?

2007-09-30T14:29:00.000+08:00

jux came back from movie with dear dear. watched "balls with fury" (i hope i din get the name wrong). its a damn lame show la. cannot stand...it kept me laughing for the whole time.

my back is killing me. went training today. but i was late. hahaha...they angry. tml i wun be late le wor. i promise...~maybe cos came and went in straight, din really stretch, my back ache so badly after the movie. sob sob.

im suppose to do my reflection now, but apparently im not on the correct track though i believe blogging is also doing reflection. and i got something to share...confidentiality observed. (i hope my boss or lady boss wun see this)

Lady boss: shimin, how much is ur monthly pay?
me-devil: tell her more....she wun noe...tell her more!!
me-angel: u should be honest....ur shouldn't lie! tell her $550.
ME: why not u ask MR. Ramesh....(knowing that he is a super nice guy that says thank you to me when i hand him a piece fof inished work)
Lady boss went off and asked him, and he said $600!!! woohoo....$50 more. hahahaha...evil minie. bad minie...
lucky lady boss came to me, if she had gone to sumitra(another intern in the firm) i wun get extra. hahaha...she wasnt very happy at first. and i felt a little guilty. but i was okie when she asked my to join her for yoga sessions. hahahaha...she say she can meet me someday to go yoga together...i dun feel guilty anymore. hehx.

to Shan: i forgot to add a politically and supposedly to be there sentence. " i love all the people that loved me, cared for me and supported me..." hahaha...perfect!!!!

ronaldo is on match tonight, but im not watching...i miss him...alittle more than my dear dear. =X (i hope i am not kidding, but sadly i am. haha)

2007-09-28T09:31:00.001+08:00

Okie! Its 0913 in the morning and I am faking an innocently busy look. WTH!! Sip lehx. Tot wad. Hurrrrh?? Anyway, I was suppose to do my AEIC and then opinion, then, lunch and wait for boss to give more work. Work so hard for wad? Hmm…they wun see…as in, they wun see my screen and know wad I am doing. I always hand in work so quickly that he keeps on saying thankyou. Haha…or maybe its pure politeness. But he dun have to say it! L0lx

I came in t-shirt and 3-quarters today, with no heels but flat shoes, or maybe a more lady like sandals.haha…damn slack lehx shimin!!

Meizhen jux asked if im free to cover her for her work at sentosa. Hmm…got training. The school pool closing. =”( no pool for next few mths. Anyone is kind enough to provide us pool?

I am so super bored…faking busy-ness is tiring…but I dun wish to genuinely busy like last wk. that was killer…stress till wan cry le. I like it now…I’m gonna go make more friends on friendster now!!

Muacks… I love honey (honey dun need jealous le k). I love my darling Ting. I love my dearest team mates, my mummy, my daddy, my irritating brothers, my sport, “my job”, my breakfast, my packed lunch, my soya bean, my msn, my friendster, my blog
And my greatest love, I love dear dear.

2007-09-25T17:11:00.000+08:00

when i work at restaurant, i get knives cuts.
when i work as a florist, i get flower cuts.
when i work in office...i get paper cuts!!
when will i stop having cuts...sob sob....pain pain.

i'm trying to pretend to work...haha...

2007-09-25T14:14:00.000+08:00

hmm...apparently i'm not as free as i was before. haha...did alot of new stuff. make new friends too. today i had lunch with honey and her colleagues. hahaha...went to eat halal minced meat noodles at boon tat street...got eat before? halal de lehx! no pork...they used minced chicken. other than the taste of the soup is abit not as tasty as if it were made of pork, it was generally nice. healthy too i guess...not so fatty. hahaha...

i finally send out the sms to glor le. saved it in my draft since last week. i was wondering if i should put training aside for time being. maybe give myself a break will make me play better when i make a comeback. hahaha....i told glor i will pace down a little on training...maybe like twice a week, pool training i guess. a break is wad i need...to give myself a rest and pick myself up again for the next competition.
ytd, i was watching a singing competition at tianlong's place. when i see the contestants lost, maybe not by their singing but other external factors, i feel for them.
hmm....maybe dats me...once defeated badly, it take some time to take effect. hahaha...i was okie till the last day of competition...weeks after that, when i think about it again, it was more than tears and sadness, but also all the hope and effort i put in during training came to me with alot alot alot of disappointment. its the worst feeling cos we all knew we could have done better...super super disappointed with my personal performance during that particular match. till now i still can feel as if the competition jux ended...the chill that goes down from my head to toe when the goal was scored for that very moment.

my decision to pace down on training did not come just or after the competition. i mentioned before that i will be taking a break after the national champ. with the back injury and all the complains from my parents, i managed to negotiate a "quit" to a "rest" for a few months for all the pain and sufferings to go...hahaha...i hope my team mates will understand that i not eating snake wor.

this reminds me to email my other 3 fellow team mates...haha...

2007-09-20T08:23:00.000+08:00

I’m supposed to be working now. Its 5.12pm already. I’m waiting to knock off. Haha…
I had a busy start in the morning and den clearing one file after another and now I jux got another file from my boss. Never ending work.

But for the past few days, I learnt how to do work slowly so that I wun be see as an irritating fellow keep on knocking on my boss’s door for work.

I have a very nice boss that tells me I can end my day during the first week of SIP at about 5+. And one that tells me I don’t have to finish the work he gave me on the day itself unless he marks it urgent. This also meant that I can take my time…but how much time do I need to do an opinion or affidavit or bundles or letters? Hmm…and he said “thank you” to me when I pass him my work and he handed to me another file. Haha…so nice rite?

thanks to all those “idiot” letter I have in school, my lawyer now jux read my letter and I send it off immediately within 30 minutes. New record for shimin!! Sometimes, he dun even need to tell me to write a letter to ask for documents…hahaha….I am jux so smart…

Anyway, even with my improving typing speed, I shall not blog anymore till the next time…its too obvious to type so smoothly without reference to the file. =p

2007-09-11T02:55:00.000+08:00

had been a tiring month. after exams is the competition. for 3 weekends, i woke up like 6+ and slept like 12+ or later.

hmm...but we didn't win anything. we lost all matches on the last day. we could have done it. but we lost it. even though i very bu gan yuan, but nothing can change the fact. we didn't train for this competition, and we could come so far, its not bad le. to think of it, we hardly had a full team playing a game or training.

nevertheless, it was a memorable competition. my first time playing in the alumni team. maybe my last time playing as a ivp team. a competition before i go for a break to let my back rest. a competition where we know where we stand. a competition where all effort were gathered. a competition where much tears were shed. and one that is the beginning of our journey to champion.

the next one will be better.

stayed over last night. jux reached home in the morning.

i'm not sure what is my working hours like for sip. i hope it won't take up more than office hours. since it will be quite a big law firm.

took a munchies photo.

had mahjong session after that.

2007-09-07T12:44:00.000+08:00

it had been a free week...nothing much to do. jux slacking around with friends and hanging out for mahjong and dinner.
last wkend was a difficult and disappointing wkend. disappointed with myself. disappointed with the outcome. disappointed cos we lost the ivp. and now, i still have the opens team to work with. i'm not as confident as when we start the competition anymore. it is not easy...to keep that confidence level after what happen on sunday.
monday, me, shan, ria and mich went for movie. 881. den went to celebrate leo's b'day at the elias mall japanese restaurant. i booked the room, and we celebrated there. then, we surprised leo with alot poppers. hehx. fun~!!
tuesday, i sleep, rest, eat and went for training.
wednesday, sleep, rest and ate at a restaurant at joo chiat road. not in the mood to do anything then.
today, met dear early in the morning. then had lunch at home before going mahjong at mich's place with xianwen and jas ng. hmm...den came home for curry fish. haha...

tml another holiday. my holiday ending le. so reluctant. sob sob.

2007-09-01T13:55:00.000+08:00

have been busy since last weekend. had competition during the weekends. played against sp and np. it was a tiring weekend, not the matches, but the sun. hmm...it make me feel very tired after a day of exposure.
had my first paper on monday. it was okie...den study for wednesday. it was the past already, no mention about it. haha...going to look for teacher for my civil procedure's individual project result on monday with hany.
my wrist has been aching since last sunday...on and off, dunno wad happen.
tml is another wkend of matches, more matches i think. i hope it will be a joyful week. haha...
at the end of the competition will be the beginning of my sip awaiting...i'm excited, at the same time reluctant. i want my school holiday!! hmm...but well...since i can't have both, might as well make the best with what i am getting. i'm looking forward to sip. hehx.
suddenly became emotional about relationship and saw this show where the guests chat about marriage. marriage is not somewhere i am now, but definitely will reach dat stage so i thought about wad they said. haha...interested? (ask me yourself den i tell u)...hehx.

going to have some preparation for tml le...in case i wake up late, can jux pull and go...
if only i can wear my wetsuit to slp...but my mummy will think i'm crazy! hah!

2007-08-23T14:15:00.000+08:00

went to visit my ah ma at gleneagles this morning. had oyster mee sua for lunch and then came home to continue my studying, feeling sick and tired.

sometimes some people jux hate to see people having some peace and quiet life, that they put words into people's mouth. if these words are harmless still okie lohx, but now these words might bring siblings into fights and misunderstanding, which damn idiotic person does that, that person must be heartless, evil, and very very bored. if she wish to watch people fight, den go watch more drama series can le...damn annoying. hmm.

have no mood to blog. so angry!!

i'll stand by my mother...whoever is against her, is against me!!

2007-08-19T22:28:00.000+08:00

my weekends, jux like any other weekends, training & training. saturday, met dear for breakfast at mac before going for training. had training in the rain and in the super cold cold cold weather...i had running nose immediately after leaving the pool.
after training went for lunch den pei dear dear cut his hair...den with the rest, we head to mich's place for mahjong and movie...haha...they had a hard time choosing the 2 movies.
at mich's place, we had mahjong and lots of food. her mother is so so so nice. she got us drinks, made cheese prata (i'm missing it already!!) and boiled those beans for snacks. it was so nice to be at her place. but think cos of weather in the day, i din feel very well while playing mahjong...
& my luck was at the bottom of all... hahaha...even aunty see le also say, "haiyo, why like dat?" haha. but okie la. for fun only.

today went for training...den the weather changed from hot in the day till cold in the afternoon. heng i had long sleeves, else i would freeze like ytd.

i'm going to prom!! i'm going to prom! haha...never had prom before...not sure if i'm going to have one in the future so i'm not going to miss this one. hehx.

hany ask me study tml with her and alvin. i said yes. going to have mac with them first, but i doubt i will wake up in time for it...haha

2007-08-17T00:24:00.000+08:00

i woke up in the morning and hear my brother playing with the ball. he will be having his A Maths prelim and den O level oral. haha...

i did tutorial for Company and procedural accounts and will study another chapter later... found some pictures in my phone that i haven upload. it was taken during the breakfast with Daphne. we had the stickers ones where we bought the same shirt, but swope colours to wear. then we changed back at the machine area...daring act of ours. l0lx.

2007-08-16T13:37:00.000+08:00

hmm...i studied 2 chapters in the afternoon before i start watching the shows on tv...

Daphne went back to States. had breakfast with her yesterday at the prata shop opposite school and went shopping at tampines central after that. den she went off to meet her aunty and grandma. she flew off this early morning. not sure when is the next time she is coming back but i know i'm gonna miss her.

dear is sleeping becos he will watching soccer later. i say i will wake him up so i will need my slp soon as well...

2007-08-14T14:19:00.000+08:00

hmm. had been quite busy for the pass few days. with civil pro final test, company law quiz and mloct project submission.

had lots of fun too. last wednesday went to samuel's place for housewarming, followed by a stay over. then, national day, went home and pei mummy go buy pizza and enjoyed it with my family. my brother and his gf went to see fireworks. so jealous...dear dear no bring me go. but anyway, stayed home for the night to study civil pro.

den friday was civil pro test. was scared, worried, anxious, nervous and all kinds of shit, but went through it. i dunno how i did, but hope its alright.

saturday had training for the whole day...was so tired after dat. but went MOS with my cousin. we went to dance. oh! plus my uncles and aunties drinking. so while they drink, me and my cousin went round MOS dancing in different music. daphne love the more retro ones, while i preferred the area where all youngsters are...there should be where i belong rite? l0lx.

played till about 3+, we decided to leave. aunty joe and uncle willie wants to try out the yong tau fu at Anderson Road, knowing that it only opens in the middle of the night, from 11pm till abt 4am. we went there, waited for like 45min for the food. me and daphne shared a bowl of it. it taste like........................yong tau fu. l0lx.

the same morning, sunday, woke up at abt 8 for friendly with SP. hmm...other than my sucking shooting, we did fine. i think my shooting was super duper plus a million times of s-u-c-k. we bought so many food...and didn't manage to finish. i was eating all the time cos i need to replenish energy lost for not sleeping and for calories burnt after jumping around for the night. den we went for lun-ner (lunch cum dinner). intially they all wanted sushi, but dear and some guys decided on KFC. i was pretty worn out and bad tempered by then. cannot rmb much, but i think i made weilong angry, and din speak very nicely to the ppl there. haha...including dear dear. i'm sorry.

today!!!! someone melted my heart with 4 songs. i went to zhang dong liang's small little concert in school today with honey and sharyl. i was so crazy before entering, but sat down quitely to hear him sing through out. even looking at him in a distance, his voice jux melted my heart...and it was....jux, nice to be there. it was very short. and as we had to sit on the floor, my back aches and din wan to sit any longer. haha...
now, beginning to feel tired and eyes closing...i miss my bed...photos coming up...

at the concert...hosted by YES933 DJ, lim peifen.took while waiting for the concert...it was like an hour of waiting...

at MOS with daphne...

my fierce looking dear dear...so scary...

took in the lift of samuel's place...it was...artistic...

went for dessert with mummy and daddy... i like the mango sago thing.

manage to catch xavier in formal wear...quite smart looking rite...

2007-08-10T14:36:00.000+08:00

was preparing for my test tml. i failed mid sem, not sure about this final paper. abit worried. abit scared. abit uncertain. but i guess i will need some sleep. haha. blog jux in case ppl tot i abandon the blog again. hehx. joking!

yeah! going zhang dong liang's concert on monday!! woohoo!!

nitex.